I Could Tell You

I've tried about 4 times this week to write a blog post worth reading.
But honestly, I can't do it.
It's not that I have nothing going on in my life, or that I'm upset about something in particular.

I just haven't had words in my heart to write this week.

I could tell you that packing is going fine. That I'm currently avoiding it.
I could tell you that Matthias has a very stressful day ahead of him today, at work.
I could tell you that I found another spider in the shower on Wednesday morning.
I could tell you that there are only 2 1/2 more days that the phrase "I found another spider..." will be a part of my regular vocabulary.
I could tell you that I've been listening only to country music the past 2 days, and it's been lovely. It's honestly the only genre of music I listened to from age 4-18. Widening my musical horizons for the past 3 years has been one of the coolest things I've ever done.
But I totally just made a kick-butt country playlist.
I could tell you that last night, Matthias and I laid in bed with Pizza Hut pizza, watching The Winnie The Pooh Movie. We were cracking up. Pooh is the absolute sweetest thing ever.
I could tell you that the new neighbors behind us smoke cigarettes. And the smell has somehow found its way into our apartment, making our kitchen smell like cigarette smoke. Yuck.
I could tell you that, currently, I'm sitting cross-legged in my pajamas, facing the headboard of my bed, sipping grape juice.
I could tell you I made Cinnamon-Sugar Toast for myself this morning. But my mom makes it better.
I could tell you that this week went by crazy-fast. Unbelievably fast. Which is great.
But I could also tell you that it was a rough week. Another. I've had 3 in a row.

And I could tell you that it's probably mostly all my own fault.
Because I am a control freak.
And it is killing me.
It's killing my relationships, my joy, my heart, and my trust in God.
Satan knows my weakness and he uses it against me every single chance he gets.

I. have. got. to. chill.

I could tell you that this post makes my heart very vulnerable. Pray for me, please, friends.


"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways" declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9